I'm Mr. Laughalot. YESYESYES! I am very sure you readers are pretty tired of my ever-changing nicknames! You can still call me by my present two nicknames: Barrino and Ritz. I would prefer if you call me Barrino though. ;) Ilovemywife - hahaha.

School started out nice. A pretty cool weather. Thanks a lot, Mr. Weather! haha, mdm. ho was like really angry at our class today.. again. But our class are used to her nags. We were making a lot of noise.. yes I agree anyone in her shoes would feel frustrated at the noise.. speaking from my own opinion, yes, I do find the class very frustrating when they are super noisy! She then asked if we were "pissed" at her "nags" and some of my classmates said.. "yes". Then this is where it gets interesting. She shouted at the class like crazy! Ow?

EDIT: I forgot to add this. We did our practical for Physics. LOL, it was kind of fun. I forgot I had physics homework to do... so yea. It's not fun. AT ALL. Stupidstupidstupidd.

I started continuing to read the storybook that I borrowed a day ago. Right now, I'm at page 70. A little bit more to go and I'm done but yes, so far, the story is very understandable. I read the book for a good 1.5 hours and then started on my e-maths homework. Inverse variations. Yea, pretty easy but I'm a little bit confused. But it's not a major confusion so no worries.

I got out of school at around 4.30pm and walked to the bus stop. I noticed a girl from our school just a few metres ahead of me. At first, I had this 'thought' she was my friend. But then, I told myself: that can't be her since she alway takes the bus from the Interchange. I only confirmed my doubts when I reached the bus stop. We exchanged on our welfare and stuffs like that. She's pretty much pressured and tired with the long study hours for the 'O' levels. She then asked me how my studies are going along. I told her it's great but definitely not for Chemistry at the moment. We talked for a little while then my bus came. Oh yeah, she's called Samantha. We only knew each other during the late January through my library mates. She's good at maths. Haha. She taught me Sets. At that time, I was pretty much a greenhorn to a-amaths.. yea.. we all were. Haha! I suck at Sets but now I understand the whole concept fairly well.

Aaahhh. Okay, I'm going to continue reading the book! I'm SO!SO!SO! addicted to whole plot!

Laughing makes me happy. I love laughing at the smallest detail. Plus, you have to know that my laugh is really contagious. So it gives whoever who is besides me get this idea that I'm a lunatic. I did some reflection a few minutes back. I consoled myself. I'm not going to give up just like that. I still have time. Lots of them.

Anyway, I just got back from tuition an hour ago. English. Hah! Okay, it was kind of boring but yes.. nice nevertheless. For English, there's homework. Bleh? But that's the point of tuition right? To do extra homework, no? Wasn't a bad start for English. Better than Physics anyway. *shakes fist*

YEA. I'm bored like hell. I still have to do my matrices homework tomorrow. :/ I can do it now but I'm terribly tired and doing my work when I'm tired is no good. I'll probably end up with careless mistakes and lots of them. One more thing.

I hate smokers. Apparently, a smoker was in same lift as I was. And he was smoking in the lift. Damn it! I got out of the lift at the 6th floor and waited for the next lift. I really can't stand the smoke. Plus, I have difficulties breathing in (hello asthma!) so I *had* to get out of the lift.

Okay, I'm done. 2 entries is enough right? Let me repeat. I've got over the fact that my self-esteem sucks. Any ideas on how to improve my self-esteem, yea?

Yeah, I bet all of you have experience this feeling at one point in time. The feeling of being upset over some matters.

I stayed back after school today and read up on a storybook. The title is The Curious Incident Of The Dog In The Night Time. Honestly speaking, I never liked reading books. But yes, this particular story... I'm quite interested. I've read the story up to page 34 for now. I'll be able to finish reading this book by next week hopefully. Anyway, I was forced into reading the storybook. Our class were the "rats" to start off the "Read Singapore" programme. The rest of the classes will have to read the storybooks after us.

Yeah. Anyway, while I was reading this book, I had this strange feeling. I felt upset all of a sudden. Now, if you think I'm being very emotional at this point in time, please close the window straight away. I don't need your comments.

If you know me well, I get upset very easily if I can't understand some things.. studies especially. I get really upset whenever I can't understand something.. it just makes me feel as though I'm stupid. I do admit that I have a pretty low self-esteem but I just don't know how to make myself more confident. Chemistry. I hate this Mole topic. HATEHATEHATE. I just can't understand what the hell it's all about. I've attempted a question.. and read the textbook over and over again but I just cant grasp the concept.

Even History. The best subject I am in followed by MT. I'm slacking so much in History. Seriously. From an A1 scorer for History to a B4 scorer. 3 grades down. SAD. English. The subject I am pretty good in. From a B4 to a C6. *sighs*

Now, I always look ahead the future. And I'm very sure if I continue what I'm doing now, I won't make it into a JC or a Poly to pursue a diploma in Mass Communications.

*bigsighs*

Sorry. I just don't like bottling up my feelings to myself. I rather vent my issues in my journal.

Yeah. Sorry.

Warning: Circular Measure (A-maths) is fucking difficult. Know that beforehand. :/ There's going to be a lot of trigo things involved. >>;;

Hi.

Things are so cool right now to the point that I want things to much hotter. ;) Started off the day with 3 periods of English which sucked. The first 10 minutes, Ms. Picca was a little bit angry at the class because the class was in a mess. Plus, she wanted us to go back to our original seats before the exam was.. and we had to move all our things from one table to another which was very troublesome but worth it. I'm no longer sitting with Gideon. *happy* I'm back to my previous seat.. that is.. with Jerry.

After that was Chemistry. I can't understand today's lessons at all.. Today's lesson was about Counting Moles. I was like.. oh.. the mole on your face? Yeah, okay. Nah, just kidding. The first few section of the chapter was okay.. I could understand a little bit. But definitely not the later sections. :/ I felt damn terrible knowing that I can't understand that stupid shit. Bleh. So anyway, I told suppie after school today to arrange a time for some make-up lessons. Either this week or the next.

No PE today. Only weight-checking? x)

Brrrr. I'm cold right now. ^^; *shuts the window*

Then was Mother Tongue. Haha, I enjoyed today's lesson. We were discussing about a topic for the upcoming debate this Thursday. But yea. it was kind of boring to some extent because I really am not interested in the "debating business". The rest of the day was Maths..maths and maths. Haha, Mdm. Ho was angry with the class today. She kept telling long winded fairy tales to us.. and blablablaa. But yeah, I did enjoy today's lessons.

I stayed back after school till 5.30pm and went home with Irfan and Weidong. hahahaa, the whole staying back thing was fun. And I saw the "bapoks". *dies*

so yeah.

nothing else to update on. im done with my homeworks. off to tuition, cya.

The first day of school was fun but tiring. I seriously hate warm weathers! *whines* Especially today. The weather was exceptionally super warm. Plus, I was wearing my PE t-shirt inside so that made me feel even more warm.

The new timetable took effect immediately and honestly speaking, I think it's cooler than the previous one. But too bad, this timetable is just temporary. :/ So that kinda sucks.

First period was Geography. We learnt Weathers and Climates. We are already starting on Physical Geog - which I love. The second period was History which was boring. We were given a group task and all we had to do was formulate questions and find the answers on ourselves. Then next was Physics. Boring! But yea, it was only a period. That killed my time. The whole class were doing on a worksheet about Density, Mass & Volume. That topic is easy but Kinematics is so not. Yes, I know Kinematics is part of E-maths but guess what? I hate the theory-works. Third was CME. New teacher - Mr. Razali. Hahaha. Don't mind me but I'm kinda laughing at the fact Mr. Razali is now a CME teacher and a MT teacher. :/ Not that I care but seriously wtf? Thank goodness it was recess.

Ate spaghetti (today's spaggie tasted like veggies). :/ I rinsed my mouth with water.. lots of water. x) Haha. Everyone thought I was crazy.. drinking one packet after another. Bought myself the poala sh*t and enjoyed eating it myself. *evil laughter*

Then it was Mother Tongue. New additional teacher! Miss. Marini or is it Mrs? Hah, no idea. Anyway, she's kind of funny. A lot better than Mdm. Sis anyway. During MT, we just did some really boring sh*t such as file checking.. corrections.. book marking. The part that I hated most was the corrections. ^^;

Next was English. OK, utterly sucky. We did the paper 1 checking. :/ Meh, I don't want to talk about English. It just went offtrack for me. :(

Recess.

...

:)

...

drank pop. went to 3e5 classroom. and noticed it was in a huge mess. like really in a mess. got myself out of the class. went back to 3e3. talked to a friend for a while. and the bell went off.

Maths. yay! Haha. I think Maths made my day. :) No really. I'm not lying. Nor is this sarcasm that you hear from me each day. yea? We studied Variations. We are one chapter ahead of the rest of the classes for a-maths. bwahaha. The other classes are all studying Matrices for a-maths right now and we have plenty of time to catch up on e-maths. So that kinda rocks. Variation is easy.. you just gotta be more practical and careful when you read the questions. Anyway, Mdm. Ho told us there will be a trainee teacher teaching us e-maths.. meh. And this teacher is a male. My stand is: male or female, I don't care. I like the way Mdm. Ho teaches even though she always nag.. and tells fairy tales - long ones too.

I got out of school at 3pm and saw a bunch of boys with michael toh. I think they either had 1) long hair 2) untucked uniform. One of my friends was in that group. Poor him. And I hate the new system - the security guards. I'm so used to going out by the main gate.. and now I have to walk one huge round to get myself to the small gate, hello? fuckk.

And the weather was super warm. I had to rush my way to the trees.. you know along the road.. you'll see very cool shades. ^^; so i kinda rushed over to the shade.. cooled myself down then continued my way to the bus stop. missed my bus by 5 minutes. :/ and i had to wait another 10 minutes before the next bus arrived. *sigh* Got to my stop.. then Dad called me to buy some things for the family. In my heart I was saying.. "wtf... im like so tired already!" but i had to do the errands. bought whatever that was supposed to be bought and got myself home only at 4pm. -.-

*sigh* I'm very tired. First day of schools are always so tiring. I'm going to watch Hi-5. x) Hahahaha.

I woke up at 6am and ate my breakfast. I had tuition early this morning. Physics and A-maths. Seriously, I'm hating Physics now. And the tutor sucks really bad anyway. I hate him. I'll be changing my classes from Physics to English. I heard from a few of my friends that the English teacher is very funny but who knows right? I rather write essays than suffer in Physics class. Many of those who joined Physic class this year quited halfway and joined another open class. Guess what I'm hinting at? The teacher sucks! Duh!

Anyway, I was released at 10.30am and went down for a while to grab some chill 7-eleven drink. bwahaha. My brain froze. Anyway, I'll jump straight to the point. A-maths was fun! Haha! I love the teacher. He's funny and alway makes the class laugh out loud. This one guy from the class had to stay back behind for private tuition from the tutor himself because he couldn't answer anything at all about Functions. I don't know his name but he's a Chinese and kind of looks like an angmoh.

After that, I got myself a hair cut! It looks horrible by the way. I don't know why. Call me a lack of self-esteem but I just think the hair cut is damn short. =/ Even with wax, I don't think it'll work anyway.

Self-esteem right now: 30%

I got back home, went online for 2 hours and then straight to hell. =| Homeworks. Thank goodness I had already done my a-maths tys homework! And that already contributes to 70% of the whole holiday homework! I still had Sets paper 2 homework left and my english essay to be written on. At first, I had no motivation to do the essay at all... I rather do Maths. Then, I found some inspiration to actually do the essay. I got it done within one hour. Then next, I had an hours break before continuing to do the sets paper 2 and the english compre. BUT, I fell asleep after doing my sets paper 2.. and only woke up at 9pm (which explains why I was away on MSN). Woke up and did my english compre. Now I'm done with everything! *grins evilly*

OH YEA. My sister enrolled herself for some singing competition. I think it's called the Anugerah or something? Or whatever. I wish her luck in the competition. She will be having the audition next week or the week after. *g*

OK, I'm done. Goodnight. :)

(and yes i realize its not a good ending to an entry at all.. goodnights are so not cool.)

& i never thought everything would end this way
that the walls would come down crumbling on me
that when time stood still
that when the lights dims
you'd stop talking

& and that when i open my eyes
i'll see corpses of your lies -- each leaving its residue
their ghosts left to haunt me
piercing through my flesh -- moment by moment
biting my soul

& that when i close my eyes
ill be reminded of them.
& that when i read a book
ill see them.
& that when I dream
ill see flights of Deja Vu; each reminding me of them

& that when i wake up
i realized
you were never mine.

PFFT.

Remember that particular post I wrote about the upgrade works? YEAH. I freakin' hate the upgrade. Now, you have to know that I'm not a morning person. And I hate waking up to the plain irritating noise pollution. (btw, I do have cottons in my ears, lmaooo. IM A GENIUS!) Anyway, I really did wrote on a paper 4 letters:

STFU.

And pasted it on the front door. x) Now, I really don't care if they come after meee if they see that piece of paper with that word but hopefully they won't have any single idea what STFU really means. *evil laugh*

You know what I do when I'm bored? I stare in empty space. =/ OOOHH and me and my kitty stare at each other. :D AHAHAHA. My kitty is really adorable! She kept staring at me whilst I was playing online games. :P And she was on my bed. Stupid kitty. Now I have to change the bed sheets! BUT I still adore her anyway! *grins*

I still have surds and indices left for amaths.. and the sets paper. PLUS, english essay and composition.

=/

OMG.

I made myself dessert for dinner yesterday. I made myself some really cool shinnitz. I had choco ice cream (lmao) with whipped cream on top sprinkled with those rice chocolate thing you find in bakery shops. And also, grape juice with whip cream + strawberries. Crappie desserts, I know but it was yummy.

Besides, I wanted to eat sweet stuff for a change and not oily food! I've been having difficulties breathing lately. I think my long lost friend (foe!) is back - asthma. Blah. I'll be dropping by the doctor's clinic today after lunch. Thank goodness the clinic is just opposite my house.. or else, I'll DIE of too much heat (assuming it's going to be sunny late this afternoon!).

Anyway, after dinner, I took 2 hours to match my clothes. *grins* Been trying out the clothes seeing which will match one piece with another and stuff like that. I had a lot of fun matching the clothes though! And once the matching is all done, it's time for me to do my *most-hated* chore of all - cleaning my room. Haha! I *hate* cleaning my room! I like it messy. *beams* But anyway, even though I like it messy, I have to clean the room up or else I'll find a lot of things missing by tomorrow morning! (off to the dustbin!)

Nowww, my room is all clean and tidy. :D I just need to clean the computer desk tomorrow. It needs a good clean! *nods*

And for your information, I stayed up. =/ LOL.

I'm feeling hyper!

Yesterday was boring. My day was fun though! I played 5 hours of non-stop DVD hits (omg, perfect 10!). I was planning to go to Mr. Chew's house for the lunch but I didn't go. He called me the night before but my Dad answered the phone as I was already asleep. I promised my friend to accompany her to a competition she's in. It's a kinda English competition thing. They give you a topic and you have to answer on the spot. No time limit or anything. Just say whatever you want as long as it makes sense to the topic given! She didn't win though! But at least she made it to the top 24! heh. And yes, she's terribly good at English! She got a B3 for her mid-year... damn her!

As you probably know already, I didn't go to his house. I wanted to though. Anyway, I was told that only 5 people went for the lunch! 5 freaking person. =/ And the group of friends that I've promised to go with didn't even turn up for the lunch! Poor Mr. Chew! And those food. LOL~

*silly*

Well, I'm not planning to go out today unless my sister is willing to sponsor me $ to buy myself more clothes! I've been in a shopping frenzy lately! I bought myself a lot of clothes a few days back and now I have this strong urge to buy more and more and more clothes! It's not a good habit though... neither is it a good one. This frenzy is burning a huge hole in my wallet! (homagawd, my wallet, my wallet is on fire! HELLO 995!)

LOLOL.

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OMGOMGOMGOMG. THE GREAT SINGAPORE SALE IS COMING! *ORGASM* SHOP TILL I DROP! *grins*

Right I'm done. :D *dances*

Pretty night isn't it?
I'm waiting like a fool - but you played blind;
I cried in silence - but you played deaf;
I'm just like a pawn in your monopoly of games;
Something so usable and reliable to you; something so fragile & upsetting to me;
Now, I'm lying on this lush green grasses;
Gazing into the dark blanket above me - the night sky;
Something so beautiful and unique yet very upsetting;
I see countless stars that I couldn't count;
Just like your thousand and one promises you whispered into my ears;
that you never meant to keep on to.
Honey baby - I'm tired; let me off, please?
I'm begging you just like a dog would to get your attention;
Please.
Just. Give. Me. Something. To. Sink. My. Teeth. In.

Author's Note: I repeat this poem has nothing to do with my life. I'm not upset nor am I depressed. In fact, I think life is good and smooth sailing for me right now. I'm just in a mood to write poems and yesss, I do write deep & upsetting poems. Bwahahaha.

So yea. I'll be updating what happened today shortly. :)

Read that title.

I *might* be away from 14 June till 21-24 June. Or somewhere day. I've a few commitments I need to complete.

:)

*poke* It's not confirmed yet! So I have no idea whether or not I'll be away from the internet! :P

Morning started out fairly nice for me. I woke up at 8am, had a yummy breakfast and watched some cartoon on Kids Central till it was around noon time. I was too obsessed over the TV to the point I didn't notice what time it was!

OMFG.

12 noon! Damn, I might be late for the outing today with 3 of my friends - Damian, Yeeha and Chris. So anyway, I got out of home around 12.45pm and headed for Orchard. Now, once I got there, I realized I wasn't the only one who's late. Guess who's way later than I was? Yeehan.
By one freakin' hour. Seriously. I couldn't stand the oh-so-warm weather at all and I already felt a little bit uncomfortable in teh weather. When he arrived, I already had this kind-of weird expression on my face... more like a sarcastic/angered/pissedoff expression. Yeehan knew I was pissed off at him. Anyway, we walked around Orchard for god-knows-how-many-rounds, bought some cool things. I splurged some extra money on 3 clothes. Duh, obviously, it is a branded one. I don't see imitation goods in Orchard or I might just be blind not to have noticed such stalls/shops.

Anyway, Yeehan told me his reason why he was late. I couldn't believe he didn't "wake up on time". But on account that he's usually very punctual whenever he goes out, I didn't mind. =/ So yea.

Got back home around 6pm. Rested for some time in bed.. and then went online. This is the thing that makes me more than just frustrated. I've already make it clear to everyone that I am not online to help with PC/Blog stuff. Dude, don't you know? ITS ALREADY CRYSTAL CLEAR. I also have it as part of my personal message on MSN! Can't they read or are they just illiterate?

I don't care if you are my friend/bestfriend/bestmate/clever/smart/dumb/whatever. :/

So yea. I quickly signed out of MSN to avoid such questions.. got online on Yahoo and talked to a few of my online friends who are just plain crazy! hehe! They made my day! :D

It's 3.18am now. I'm planning to stay awake. Hopefully.

See ya.

jlkjlhkmlmou.

Soooo. I'm done with Physics.

Just 30 minutes ago, I started on A-maths! SHOCKER, eh? Seriously, I hate A-maths like woah. My e-maths is still the strongest out of the two maths so hurray! Anyway, I did 2 chapters for a-maths. Yupyup, I'm glad I'm done and over with Functions and Matrices. ^___^ I think I'm left with two other units to be completed.. one's logarithm and the other is Surds & Indices (which I hate. Right Now. *brain explodes*)

Blablablaa. What other holiday hw do I have? :/

Malay? Nope.
Chem? Not sure.
Geo? No.
English? Yup. Composition (ew!) + Comprehension (*pukes*)

I think I deserve some treats. ^______^ Gonna catch myself LOTS of movies till the whole DVD player catches fire. *evil laugh*

I've gone crazy after looking at numbers.. loads of numbers. *faints*

I'm going to set ONE freakin' rule when you talk to me on MSN.

1. DO NOT EVER EVER EVER EVER ask me for HTML help, computer help, blog help! WHATEVER.

Keep your whines to yourself. I've heard enough.

Don't be mistaken. I hate dramas.

NO, not those dramas you see on TV. I love those. I can't live without TV dramas. Especially Channel 8 which also explains why I can speak/understand a fair amount of Chinese language.

Now, moving on. I hate WWW-drama (aka INTERNET-drama, duh!) and IRL-drama (aka loverboy/lovergirl/idiedforlovekindofdrama/actgangster/actcute/allthosestuffkthx). LOL, whaddafuck? I've had enough with this dramas. I've been involved in a drama 3 years ago. Yes, and the drama happened in our very own little school. And was started by me. Yesss. I'm a drama-whore 3 years ago (GOD, I miserably regret not joining drama club 3 years ago!). And I ended up losing a friend. I regretted my crave for attention.

*weeps*

So now, it's 2005, yo. The year of the DRAMAS! Noooo, I am not talking bullshit here. Two dramas are going on. ^^ And people are already asking me to get involved in the drama and take my stand. OHMYGOSH. I didn't know I was so damn popular. *blushes* So anyway, my answer is:

I do not want to get involved in your pitiful dramas. I'm on neither's side. I'm on my own side.

yea. get that. okay? plz? i beg you.

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Now that's done. OK. I don't like this renovation thing that's going on. They are drilling, piling stacks of wooden/metal bars, hammering nails, masturbating (oops) and much moreee.

And you know what I'm gonna doooo? I'm going to get myself some cool NIPPON paint and start writing out the word "STFU" on the open corridor.

IM SO A LOANSHARK, LOL.

Sorry for the lack of updates. My last update was 3 days ago?

I have been working my guts out the past few days on A-maths and Physics. Hopefully, I'll have enough time to work on my Geography and Combined Humans the next few days. This holiday (oops) hasn't been a holiday mode for me. My parents cancelled their trip to Australia because they apparently didn't think the house will be in "safe hands" while they are gone. So anyway, the house is alive. Full of joy lately. Haha. My Aunt gave birth to a new baby. :D We are planning to visit her in the hopsital tomorrow or the day after. It's going to be a lot of fun. I'm going to catch up with my cousin. One on one. And not by phone. XD

I've been trying to get my PC cured (lol?). I've been getting some good solutions from online PC techs. I need to underclock my processor. The problem is I don't know how. I'm gonna have to do a lot of research tomorrow on how to underclock my processor. Hopefully, this will solve the auto reboots once and for all... if not, temporarily.

Oh yea. Did I mention I'm in pain? Yup. Physical pain. I drank too much orange juice and ended up getting a SMOOTH yet PAINFUL bowel movement if you get what I mean. :P

I stayed up today. My insomnia is acting up again. Oh, those old days. I hate insomnia to the core. I've lost HOURS of sleep for the past 2 years. I used to be on medication but I'm not now. Maybe I should consider putting myself on medication once again. I'll think about that.

Me and a new friend of mine have a lot of common interest. We share the same (or slightly) different interests. We had a super long talk on the phone today. This friend of mine is really fun, enjoyable to talk to. Furthermore, this friend is always laughing like woah at the slightest who-knows-what. We stayed up till 5.30am, talked about games, school work, teachers!, crushes and all those jazz.

Did I mention the gender? I didn't... right? *yawns*

Oh yea. I just read a friend's testimonial. And to my surprise (ok, maybe I'm lying. It's not much of a surprise), the person who wrote the testimonial acted cute. LOL. Ok here goes nothing.

"ishhh euu sai onee lorsss. korkorz. mua berfdaee cumin (perv?) liaoo. neberr wisshh moi berfdaee."

Yes, I know, Weidong already highlighted this trend among Singaporean girls (boys, maybe?) who are either 1) influenced by Singlish, or 2) plain horrible at English.

I will definitely turn a blind eye if they are plain horrible at English. BUT the fact that they tried to use Singlish instead of proper English pissed me off like woah. I'm not against Singlish or whatever. In fact, Singlish has made Singapore to be very popular among tourist. (Woah, talk about tourism. OMFG. Geography! *orgasm*). It's really PLAIN irritating when you or anyone else try to act cute.

OK, here's an issue. The letter u IS NOT the same as YOU. DRILL that into your puny head. That's the worst mistake a person could EVER make be it you are good in English or you are just plain horrible at English!

*phew*

I'm done ranting. My apologies if I offended anyone. =)

I'm going to bed now. >_> Hopefully, I can wake up on time for tuition later at evening.

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